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Shuffled not forgotten....today I am feeling more forgotten.  I am going through another one of my woe is me moments.  Regardless, of how many times i try to appease myself it just does not work.  I think about  the cherished memories I've shared with my long-term childhood friends, the fights with my siblings that evolved into an underlying loyalty that cannot be penetrated by anyone....its the way of the sibling world.  I filter in and out while trying to determine what has caused this downcast mood.

Suddenly, I realize its time to get with my BFF.  This is a best friend need for you to just listen, nod, console, kind of moment but I'm pretty sure that's not what I going to get.

"Neveah, what is it now?'   So consoling.  "Well you know its just one of those, nothing is going right in my life and at least I am smart enough to just blame myself type of moment.  What else is new?"

"Girl when are you going to hook me up with that gorgeous middle brother of yours?  You know, I am still waiting.  What is your problem with that anyway?  You know he would be in ggggrrrrrreat hands."

"Okay Elaine or should I say aka Ms Tony the Tiger, I have told you time and time again about the Prince's family contract.  There is an entire segment dedicated to tricks just like you.  To make a legalized fully notarized document short....our friends are not allowed to consort with any of our siblings; it is non-negotiable....sorry, but not.  And before you ask why...blood is thicker than water.  We do not want any issues that could destroy friendships and bloodlines.  Any who, chica, I called you to discuss my issues, not your overheated desires.  I am in a me mood and we need to get to the root cause--quickly."

"I can name the cause in one second flat--it starts with a P and ends with a l.  The rest of the root cause is the song that you have declared as you and his personal anthem -- which by the way supports both of our feelings right now -- your hopelessness and my annoyance.  Johnny Gill sure got that right...there you goooo again."

Like I said earlier.  Elaine is Elaine, but she sure called that one right.  Paul, my on again off again love interest is never more than a second away from being my next thought.  A name I have tried to unsuccessfully forget time and time again.  When will I learn that he just MAY not be the man God assigned to me.  My mind logically believes that but my heart can't keep up.  Which is it God?  Let no man put asunder kind of situation or girl, you are directing your own path.

Paul....hmmmm....believe on this y'all....that is one name this story will never forget.

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